It's 10:44 pm and I'm still camped out in the study room. Something about my room just makes studying so difficult sometimes. I guess it's not that late yet, but I feel I've been doing these logic games for way too long already. And of course right now is the best time to start blogging again. I went to DG for the first time again this year, and I realized that I had all these questions. And even though we didn't have answers to all the tough questions, I feel like somehow God answered some of those questions. So far, every year in uni has been so different for me. In first year, I partied often and had a great time. In second year, I kind of isolated myself and focused on my studies. Although I did engage in some extracurricular activities that made for a stellar year in the end, for the majority of the year, I was certain that what I had to do was focus on school and would have no distractions get in the way of that. During those two years, I had moments where the mundane routines got to me. I began to feel a little lost and I had to constantly ask myself what I really wanted in life. I gave myself one too many excuses to put God in the background because I was too absorbed with myself. Thinking back, maybe I had to experience those two years for myself to finally realize my missing puzzle piece. Maybe God knows that I'm a stubborn person, and I won't back down till a point's been proven.He took two of the things that were important to me-having fun and academics-and showed me that none of those things are enough. Only God is enough. I feel like He's saying to me: See? I let you experience those things, but sure enough, you're still left feeling empty. I want more. I want the life that God wants for me. C.S. Lewis once said: "“If I discover within myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." I don't think our questions of 'why are we here?' and 'what am I living for?' come from nowhere. I think that there is a real God that puts these questions in our head to give us those answers.

We used to have late-night study sessions and freak out together. Now, here we are, reviewing questions for your interview tomorrow. It's incredible to know that we've been friends for over half of our lives. We've grown up, but in a way, I still feel like we're the same two kids that we used to be.
If I was stranded on an island, I would bring you too, because we know that whatever obstacles we're confronted with, we can take it, and we can get through them together.

A man ninety years old was asked to what he attributed his longevity. 'I reckon,' he said, with a twinkle in his eye, 'It's because most nights I went to bed and slept when I should have sat up and worried.
Dorothea Kent

To laugh often and much; To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others; To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; To know that even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us.
Herman Hesse

God, I would never be able to do it without you. I got to the point where I couldn't do it by myself anymore and I didn't know what I was doing it for. You reminded me about what's important. You helped me let go of all the things I've been holding on to. So thank you for loving me that much.

If I am lost for a day; try to find me
But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me