Saturday, May 22, 2010

Soo..it's 7:30 am and I'm sitting in my hotel room. It's a rather gloomy day in Japan today. It still feels really surreal that summer has started, and IB has ended. I was really excited to hear the beeper sound to end the last exam. I guess it does feel a little weird to be done. I have to admit that it being a part of my life for 2 years, it suddenly feels very abnormal to be without it. I think a lot of it has to do with the many, many memories that have found their way into my life these past 2 years. At first, IB seemed like a risk, but looking back, it was a chance. It was a chance for me to figure out what I really wanted in academics, that let me almost lose sight of God and find Him again. But actually, He was always there. I got a lot closer to some people as we strived towards common goals. I learned so much the world, but most importantly, I learned so much about myself. Everyone improved from where they were at the beginning. And that's what it's about, going a little farther because you can. Sometimes I do get frustrated when it's hard. I had to learn how to handle that too. I know I wasn't the best person to be around in April. I'm sorry for being grumpy. I wasn't mad, it was just the stress. Thanks for putting up with me. You knew I'd come around, right?
I know that everyone makes their own decisions and not everyone has to be hardcore in academics. I'm not saying that everyone should be that way, but sometimes when I see you slacking off, I just get frustrated. I know that you're smart and you can do it. I can see it, so why can't you? I'm frustrated because I care.
This year has gone by so fast. I just can't believe it. I can't believe that in less than 3 months, our lives will be pretty different from now. I'm excited for all of us. It's hard to imagine we were once those clueless kids that just wanted to play tag. It's hard to imagine that we've talked about graduating together for so long, and we're finally going to.
There's so much I want to say to every one of you. I want to tell you guys how much you mean to me. And I will. I'm not one to have regrets.