Dear diary

I'm sitting here in my dorm room. The weather was gorgeous this morning: sun shining, blue skies...It was just one of those feel-good days. Now, I look out and the weather's turned dull, chilly, windy, and rather dreary. I guess I should be used to it because Vancouver weather's always like that. Vancouver weather parallels the unpredictability of life. Sometimes, I feel like the days and weeks of my life are playing right before my eyes, yet I feel like I'm only an observer, an audience member as the rolls of film play on, unceasingly.
I'm still constantly learning about myself. A wise friend recently asked me: "Tiffany. What do you want? First, you have to figure that out." That's a really good question, and it's also hard to answer. Right now, I just want to live my life. I know that's really vague, but in my head and deep down, I know what that means.
What else have I learnt about myself?
I learnt that, more than ever, I really treasure the little things. I realized that the memories I can always go back to and smile about it after the fact may not appear significant. It's the side glances, inside jokes, words unsaid, foolish mistakes, hugs, and sincere smiles. These are the things I will always remember and that I hold closest to my heart. It's the encouragements, the how-are-you-feeling texts, the hallway hangouts, room talks, etc. I love that we can just talk about our futures, our far-fetched dreams and things we want to do before we die. This is what keeps us young, because we CAN dream big, we can choose, and we can live it out.
Yesterday, I sat in Bread garden with my Earl Grey tea and breakfast wrap. At that moment, I just felt really content. I think it's a blessing to be able to feel content and be content. There are always going to be things we want, but at times, we really do have to count our blessings and enjoy life one step at a time.
Thank you to everyone who loves me despite my imperfections. Thanks for looking out for me, reminding me, thinking about me and loving me. I'm sorry I have you guys worried sometimes. But whatever, I know you love my wild side ;)
To my old friends: I love you and miss you guys more than you know.
To my new friends: You have made the past weeks of my life amazing. I can't believe friendships can grow so fast. I love you guys and am already dreading the moment we'll have to say goodbye.

once upon a time...

Sometimes, ignorance is bliss. Naivety can be a blessing. Remember when we used to believe in fairytales and watch Disney movies like these stories were everyday occurrences? Ya, I miss that.

take note

Slow down, tiff. Someone remind me it's only a been a month into uni.

go with the flow

I wish I knew what I wanted. That would make life so much easier. But no, life just has to be one confusing ride.

the sun is always shining over here

I wake up and feel so lucky. I'm so lucky to be living here, to have genuine, amazing friends that I can be myself with. Friendship is timeless. I just feel like I've known these people for a long time, even to the extent that I've known them my whole life. Thank you, God, for continually blessing me with amazing people. It makes life so exciting.

on my own

It's been quite a while since I last blogged. It's been an amazing couple months of moving on, looking forward, packing up and saying goodbye to best friends. I guess it's true that there is a time and season for everything. The concept of time is intriguing in that no one can hold it back or stop it. It's unceasing, without a care for people's desires to slow down moments or fast forward through the painful ones. There's only one thing I know. I know time doesn't wait for anyone. Once the moment's gone, you're never going to get it back. I know to treasure the precious moments because they may not last forever.
In psyc, we learned that our memories are reconstructive. When we think back, we try to reconstruct and piece together the past. Sometimes, our minds can play tricks on us and we believe something different of reality. At times, I don't even know what's real anymore. Some things just seem to be too good to be true.

someday we'll know

I know we'll get through this. When I said I'd always be here for you, I meant it. I just want you to know that I'm still here and that I haven't changed. I'm not going to pretend that I understand because I really don't. I just know that I trust in everything we had. Besides, it doesn't hurt to have a little faith, right?