thanksgiving

Thanksgiving.
Thank you for being there to pull me through.

love

"love...is not easily angered. It keeps no record of wrongs."
-1 Corinthians 13:5

I know I fall short. I know how hard it is to love someone when it doesn't seem like it's worth it, but He calls us to.
It's hard for me to just forget what you did. I told you that I'd be here for you no matter what, and I broke that promise. I wish I could be more understanding, but it's not the easiest thing in the world.

"theology changes behaviour"

Now I actually believe it. I see those people that love You so much and I know how much more I want to be around those people. They have so much love in them because they have You.
I've watched myself change too. The more I read my Bible and did daily devotions, the more I knew that things would be okay. I realized that it's not all about me. Life's bigger than that. I didn't even think it would make a difference, but I found myself looking at things in a completely new way. The things I thought were so important before suddenly don't seem to matter as much anymore.
I'm definitely far from perfect. I mean, no one's perfect, but sometimes, you just have to let go and let God.

this is what friends are for

This is what friends are for.

I think it's harder for someone to celebrate in your happiness and genuinely be excited for your success than for them to mourn with you. Anyone can be sorry for you, but it takes real friends to be happy that you're doing great.

To those that I can share both sad and happy moments. I love you, and you have no idea what it means to me. I don't believe that anything happens by chance. Every single person that was put into my life was for a reason. Even those that have hurt me, I learned something from you. I learned to be wiser in the next relationship, but I'm not going to stop trusting and believing and loving because of you. Sorry, you don't have that power over me. I'm stronger than that.

the truth is...

Why does it matter so much to me? Why does every little thing make me this way? I feel so sick. I can't believe I'm doing this to myself when it shouldn't even matter. I wish I could genuinely say that I didn't care. I mean, I wish I didn't care because life would be so much easier that way.
The truth is... I don't have control over this. I want you to make the decision you want to make. No regrets.

G

sister. best friend.
You've been there for me through thick and thin. I really have to thank you for keeping this friendship strong and believing in me. Thank you for encouraging me and loving me and giving me so much love.
I know that things have changed a lot, but this friendship hasn't.
Thanks for going out to get me mascara. You're my lifesaver:) Not only that, but you're always there for me: skype, phone, txt, in person. I know I can always talk to you.
We've both been through some rough patches. It's comforting to know I can always trust you.

C

We've been through so much together and this will probably be our last memory. All those late night phone calls, arguments, talks. Thanks for that. Thanks for just being there and listening to me rant and agreeing with me that he's a retard. Thanks for being someone I can go to for advice and thanks for making me laugh. For being there, the good times and bad, thank you.

It's been.. 7 yrs? Time flies eh? When I can't listen to that song because it makes me sad. It makes me sad to think that this is all going to be over soon, and I'm not naive enough to believe it's going to be the same.

Cuba, abandoned house, that random letter, walking barefeet along shards of broken glass, climbing to the roof, exploring. I remember it so clearly.
I remember what I said to you, and I'm sorry because I had no right to judge.

Here's to senior year, to our friendship and our futures.
2009