Dear Patrick,
Wow today was definitely hectic, and stressful. As if doing the french final oral wasn't bad enough, I had to start hyperventilating, literally. Actually, I didn't even know I really had symptons of hyperventilating until my french teacher told me. That's when you know it's bad.
Amidst all this though, I realized that I have family that supports me, and friends to encourage me. Even though it seems like I was too absorbed with practicing french to notice everyone else around me, I did, and I'm really thankful that they were there to support me. I really feel like my whole IB class, we're here for each other.
I learned a lesson today too. God was asking me, through my hyperventilating moments, if I trusted Him. I thought yes, but there was always a "but" something in there. I think I finally figured it out when I went in the room that, I'm well prepared, my friends are praying for me, and God is on my side. I just had to trust, and REALLY trust, that He would get me through. I know people were praying for me when I was doing it, because I felt it. I felt it when I started, that all of a sudden, I was confident and I had the strength to do it.
Patrick, trust and put your strength in God. In times where you feel your knees grow weak and you can't do it anymore, trust Him, because He is a constant, and He'll always get you through.
Blessings,
Tiffany
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
I believe
Dear Patrick,
You know when things get tough, and you just wish all your problems could disappear? This week has been pretty stressful, and weekends are just as busy, if not more. Sometimes I really think it's humanly impossible to do everything perfectly, to give everything 100%, but no matter what anyone tells me, I always try to do my best, in everything. I think I stress myself out because I expect so much out of myself, because I want to be the best I can be, and because I like stretching the boundaries. That's not the easiest thing to do, for sure. I hate the feeling of "I could have done better," or I'm disappointed with myself because I didn't give it 100%. Even when people tell me it's okay, it's not. I guess one good thing about this is I don't give up easily. I'm the kind of person that doesn't settle to maintaining a constant, even if it already seems good to other people. As long as I'm improving, I'm doing better than the last time, and that's really what I strive for.
Patrick, I'm guessing you're the kind of person that strives for the best too, and that's what I admire about you. It's because of your determination and respect for your talent, and your humble nature that's so cool about you.
You make me want to be the best I can be too.
When you fall, just get right back up, because the ones that matter don't only love you when you're successful. The ones that truly love you are the ones that see you fall and still believe.
So don't ever stop fulfilling your dreams, and shoot for the impossible. You just don't know, maybe the humanly possible is really possible.
Love forever&always,
Tiffany
You know when things get tough, and you just wish all your problems could disappear? This week has been pretty stressful, and weekends are just as busy, if not more. Sometimes I really think it's humanly impossible to do everything perfectly, to give everything 100%, but no matter what anyone tells me, I always try to do my best, in everything. I think I stress myself out because I expect so much out of myself, because I want to be the best I can be, and because I like stretching the boundaries. That's not the easiest thing to do, for sure. I hate the feeling of "I could have done better," or I'm disappointed with myself because I didn't give it 100%. Even when people tell me it's okay, it's not. I guess one good thing about this is I don't give up easily. I'm the kind of person that doesn't settle to maintaining a constant, even if it already seems good to other people. As long as I'm improving, I'm doing better than the last time, and that's really what I strive for.
Patrick, I'm guessing you're the kind of person that strives for the best too, and that's what I admire about you. It's because of your determination and respect for your talent, and your humble nature that's so cool about you.
You make me want to be the best I can be too.
When you fall, just get right back up, because the ones that matter don't only love you when you're successful. The ones that truly love you are the ones that see you fall and still believe.
So don't ever stop fulfilling your dreams, and shoot for the impossible. You just don't know, maybe the humanly possible is really possible.
Love forever&always,
Tiffany
Friday, February 13, 2009
happy valentine's day
dear patrick,
happy valentine's day=)
I hope you're not training too hard to be able to enjoy this day, because no matter what, it's a day of love. On this day, you realize that there's so much love around, and you realize that you can get over your problems. I feel like every day can be this way, if you so choose. I mean, of course not every day is going to be perfect, but if there is always something you can be grateful for, something worth treasuring, and just maybe, someone worth loving.
It's hard to focus on the positive, isnt it? It's like a "scale of justice," somehow the negative side is always heavier. Put more focus on what's positive in your life. Amplify the little things that make you happy.
Oh and I know you like Vanessa Mae, you should listen to her Red Hot song. It's my favouriteee and it's awesome.
Patrick, not only for valentine's day, but every day of every year, I hope you'll be surrounded with love and I hope you find it wherever you go.
Love,
Tiffany_xoxo
happy valentine's day=)
I hope you're not training too hard to be able to enjoy this day, because no matter what, it's a day of love. On this day, you realize that there's so much love around, and you realize that you can get over your problems. I feel like every day can be this way, if you so choose. I mean, of course not every day is going to be perfect, but if there is always something you can be grateful for, something worth treasuring, and just maybe, someone worth loving.
It's hard to focus on the positive, isnt it? It's like a "scale of justice," somehow the negative side is always heavier. Put more focus on what's positive in your life. Amplify the little things that make you happy.
Oh and I know you like Vanessa Mae, you should listen to her Red Hot song. It's my favouriteee and it's awesome.
Patrick, not only for valentine's day, but every day of every year, I hope you'll be surrounded with love and I hope you find it wherever you go.
Love,
Tiffany_xoxo
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
When dreams come true...
So I finally got to meet him today- Patrick, of course. It was amazing and indescribable. I don't know what has gotten into me, but this better stop soon or I'm going to go crazy. Either that or I'll drive my friends nuts first=P I can't help it though.
When he came onto the rink, I just couldn't take my eyes off him. I didn't want to miss a single second. That was hard to manage, as I tried to film and take pictures and watch and scramble around with binoculars at the same time, but being a girl, I am pretty good with the whole multi-tasking thing. I was so scared and nervous and nauseous for him, I even joked to my friend, "I'm more nervous for him right now than I was for my english oral," and believe me, no joke, I almost keeled over at that.
Wow and when he was doing his victory skate around the ice, I ran all the way around to the other side of the rink, where I thought he would leave, but apparently he chose another side, so I ran back to that spot and then totally lost any etiquette thereafter. I pretty much climbed chairs, even walls, dodged people, and made a totally fool out of myself before I got close. But I finally made it, and it was all worth it. Even though Patrick had to go, I yelled his name, he turned around, and I asked for his autograph, but he was really apologetic and nice about it, but he said he was sorry and had to go. It was a brief moment, but I still count it as talking to him since I said something and he said something.
It's really his personality that shines through and that's what is so mesmerizing. He's talented, dedicated, friendly, cheerful... I'm not gonna list the rest. The list goes on forever. I would go back to the Exhibtion Gala tomorrow, but I can't. I'll just have to be patient and wait for the next time he comes, which will seem like forever.
Anyhow, meeting him was the among the best moments of my life, and believe me, I am very blessed. I'm sure this will keep me happy for a while. Hopefully long enough until his next visit=)
Love you Patrick,
Tiffany
When he came onto the rink, I just couldn't take my eyes off him. I didn't want to miss a single second. That was hard to manage, as I tried to film and take pictures and watch and scramble around with binoculars at the same time, but being a girl, I am pretty good with the whole multi-tasking thing. I was so scared and nervous and nauseous for him, I even joked to my friend, "I'm more nervous for him right now than I was for my english oral," and believe me, no joke, I almost keeled over at that.
Wow and when he was doing his victory skate around the ice, I ran all the way around to the other side of the rink, where I thought he would leave, but apparently he chose another side, so I ran back to that spot and then totally lost any etiquette thereafter. I pretty much climbed chairs, even walls, dodged people, and made a totally fool out of myself before I got close. But I finally made it, and it was all worth it. Even though Patrick had to go, I yelled his name, he turned around, and I asked for his autograph, but he was really apologetic and nice about it, but he said he was sorry and had to go. It was a brief moment, but I still count it as talking to him since I said something and he said something.
It's really his personality that shines through and that's what is so mesmerizing. He's talented, dedicated, friendly, cheerful... I'm not gonna list the rest. The list goes on forever. I would go back to the Exhibtion Gala tomorrow, but I can't. I'll just have to be patient and wait for the next time he comes, which will seem like forever.
Anyhow, meeting him was the among the best moments of my life, and believe me, I am very blessed. I'm sure this will keep me happy for a while. Hopefully long enough until his next visit=)
Love you Patrick,
Tiffany
Friday, February 6, 2009
like a dream
and with you in mind, i cant:
think
sleep,
or function properly
sometimes I wonder if I'm crazy, and I'm sure I am, but I can't help it.
and I know they don't understand, they don't understand why you're so important, and neither do I.
Sometimes I want this feeling to go away, I don't want to give myself false hope, but is it because it's false hope that I'm reaching for it? Is it because I know it can't be, it'll always be good, it'll always be this fantasy?
These are questions I can't answer, but I feel crazier by the minute.
think
sleep,
or function properly
sometimes I wonder if I'm crazy, and I'm sure I am, but I can't help it.
and I know they don't understand, they don't understand why you're so important, and neither do I.
Sometimes I want this feeling to go away, I don't want to give myself false hope, but is it because it's false hope that I'm reaching for it? Is it because I know it can't be, it'll always be good, it'll always be this fantasy?
These are questions I can't answer, but I feel crazier by the minute.
I LOVE PATRICK!
AHHHHH I'm SUPER SUPER excited I just got tickets to see Patrick in a day! I'm sooo excited I can't even believe it. My wildest dream come true... honestly.
Will blog about it soon. I bet he'll be amazing.
Tiffany
Will blog about it soon. I bet he'll be amazing.
Tiffany
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
First time doing a request on the topic of-death
So my take on death? I'm actually way more scared of the pain I might have to endure before dying than actual death. I don't think I'm actually scared of dying because I know that I really will be in paradise with Jesus. If I really believe that, why should I be scared? Although if I was ever in a place where I was in critical condition and needed the willpower to live, I would have the will to live, because I'd want to live. I think I would stay strong and hold on, because I don't believe in giving up. I'm most worried about leaving people behind, my family, my friends. I honestly hope they won't miss me too much, because I'd hate to see them sad. My family especially, I know they love me too much, and for them, I'd hold on to that last breath of life.
I also want to do so much, and I feel like I have this whole life ahead of me, I think I'd miss the future even though I'd never have had it. I know things might not go the way I have planned in my mind, but especially now, I'm young and I want to go out in the world and experience new things, broaden my perspective of life, and learn. I know death isn't something I can control, and I don't think I'd want to control it. Not surprisingly, I'm too lazy to want to control everything in my life. I think I used to be like that. I wanted to be in control of everything, but one thing I learned is, it's so much easier just to rely on God, just to trust Him. He always has my best interest in mind, and that's one thing I can lean on and be sure of.
When people around me die, sure it's hard and I certainly don't understand it, but I will learn to accept it. It's life, it happens, and while I say this, I do still take it hard when someone close to me dies, and I still cry a lot over someone's death, but deep down, somewhere under all that emotion, I accept it.
So death? Maybe it's not so big after all. Maybe what I have to focus on right now is not to worry about tomorrow and to live today as is.
Tiffany
So my take on death? I'm actually way more scared of the pain I might have to endure before dying than actual death. I don't think I'm actually scared of dying because I know that I really will be in paradise with Jesus. If I really believe that, why should I be scared? Although if I was ever in a place where I was in critical condition and needed the willpower to live, I would have the will to live, because I'd want to live. I think I would stay strong and hold on, because I don't believe in giving up. I'm most worried about leaving people behind, my family, my friends. I honestly hope they won't miss me too much, because I'd hate to see them sad. My family especially, I know they love me too much, and for them, I'd hold on to that last breath of life.
I also want to do so much, and I feel like I have this whole life ahead of me, I think I'd miss the future even though I'd never have had it. I know things might not go the way I have planned in my mind, but especially now, I'm young and I want to go out in the world and experience new things, broaden my perspective of life, and learn. I know death isn't something I can control, and I don't think I'd want to control it. Not surprisingly, I'm too lazy to want to control everything in my life. I think I used to be like that. I wanted to be in control of everything, but one thing I learned is, it's so much easier just to rely on God, just to trust Him. He always has my best interest in mind, and that's one thing I can lean on and be sure of.
When people around me die, sure it's hard and I certainly don't understand it, but I will learn to accept it. It's life, it happens, and while I say this, I do still take it hard when someone close to me dies, and I still cry a lot over someone's death, but deep down, somewhere under all that emotion, I accept it.
So death? Maybe it's not so big after all. Maybe what I have to focus on right now is not to worry about tomorrow and to live today as is.
Tiffany
Monday, February 2, 2009
lessons from A to Z
Aim high, don't be afraid of failing. You only fail if you fail to try.
Bolt at opportunity, because you never know when the next one will come around.
Confidence is key. Just believe and you'll be halfway there.
Dare to live your life. to the fullest.
Embrace who you are and focus on your strengths.
Fight for what you believe in, and stay true to yourself.
Go for gold.
Humble yourself, because the best are those that can accept and cherish others' talents.
Initiate plans, don't wait for someone else to do it.
Joyful spirits uplift the heart.
Keep your values and morals at heart; you'll need them when faced with difficult situations.
Love with all your heart
Meet new people and broaden your perspective about life.
Never give up. You can do it.
Occupy your mind with positive thoughts, it'll become part of you.
Prioritize your time, because there's only so much you can do.
Question what's indoctrinated to you and be firm about where you stand.
Respect your elders=)
Shoot for the moon, cause even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.
Trust yourself and others; you might be surprised
Use your talents, they're gifts from above
Vent when you need to, don't keep it all inside. People that love you will understand.
Wait for someone that's worth it.
Xtra (i cheated on this one) Go the distance and do the extra.
Yes you can=)
Zealous for life
Aim high, don't be afraid of failing. You only fail if you fail to try.
Bolt at opportunity, because you never know when the next one will come around.
Confidence is key. Just believe and you'll be halfway there.
Dare to live your life. to the fullest.
Embrace who you are and focus on your strengths.
Fight for what you believe in, and stay true to yourself.
Go for gold.
Humble yourself, because the best are those that can accept and cherish others' talents.
Initiate plans, don't wait for someone else to do it.
Joyful spirits uplift the heart.
Keep your values and morals at heart; you'll need them when faced with difficult situations.
Love with all your heart
Meet new people and broaden your perspective about life.
Never give up. You can do it.
Occupy your mind with positive thoughts, it'll become part of you.
Prioritize your time, because there's only so much you can do.
Question what's indoctrinated to you and be firm about where you stand.
Respect your elders=)
Shoot for the moon, cause even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.
Trust yourself and others; you might be surprised
Use your talents, they're gifts from above
Vent when you need to, don't keep it all inside. People that love you will understand.
Wait for someone that's worth it.
Xtra (i cheated on this one) Go the distance and do the extra.
Yes you can=)
Zealous for life
Sunday, February 1, 2009
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