Oxygen- Colbie Caillat

I came apart inside a world made of angry people

I found a boy who had a dream

Making everyone smile

He was sunshine

I fell over my feet

Like bricks underwater

How am I supposed to tell you how I feel

I need oxygen

Oh baby, Let me be your lady

I would make you happy

I'm never gonna leave,

Never gonna leave

Oh baby, Can I be your lady

I'm going crazy for you

And so I found a state of mind

Where I could be speechless

I had to try it for a while

To figure out this feeling

This felt so right

Pull me upside down to a place

Where you've been waiting

How am I supposed to tell you how I feel

Treasure your friends

dear pc,

I don't think it's coincidence that we meet the people we meet, and are friends with the people we're friends with. I honestly think that it happens for a reason, and the people in our lives are there to teach us something. Maybe they're encouragers, and uplift you every day, or maybe, they end up betraying you, but teach you to be wiser in the next relationship.
All my friends are different, and I go to them for different reasons. Some I go to when I want to have fun, some are study buddies, and some I confide in. It's amazing that we're all so different, yet we all get along, because friends are people that accept you despite your differences.
Sometimes, I just want someone to listen. I may not want your advice, I just need you there, for moral support. At times, I want you to give me an honest opinion, or maybe, I just need a hug when I'm down.
A friend is someone that celebrates with you in good times. They're the ones holding an umbrella over your head when the world rains down on you.
Long-lasting friendships are hard to find, so when you do find someone worth confiding in, treasure them, and don't let go. You meet people every day, but it's not every day that you make a friend.
Patrick, I hope you're blessed with people that love you, and have your best interest at heart. Even though it's hard to find true friends, don't be afraid to trust people. Follow your heart, it always works=)

xoxo
Tiffany

look forward to the future

Hey PC,

Just so you know, if you come to vancouver, make sure you visit robson st downtown, it's the best place to just hang out and enjoy the city environment. So today I went downtown with my friends [Okay if you guys are reading this, this parts really cheesy, so just uh, skip or something=)]

Anyway, they're pretty sweet. We're in IB together at school, and well, we need each other to get through all the hard times. They're also on my outreach team. Btw, I'm going to Cuba for outreach in March. Basically, we're going to help with hurricane relief, but we're focusing mainly on kids' ministries. I pretty much have to get along with them since I'll be spending 2 weeks with them in a foreign country, but it's not like that. I mean, I'm lucky to be on a team with them.

My friend and I tried on dresses, even though, technically, we still have a year and a bit before we graduate, it was still fun, just to remind us that we're so close to ending another chapter in our lives, and beginning something new. I have mixed feelings right now on where I want to be. Part of me wants to stay in highschool so I can really figure out who I am, but I'm actually really excited for the future, and what's in store for me. I know there are going to be ups and downs, and not everything is going to turn out right, but I'm not asking that it be perfect. I know it won't be, but I'm ready to deal with whatever comes my way.

Enjoy every moment of your life, and be excited for the future, because things are going to happen no matter how you feel, so stay positive and don't let yourself get down over little things. When you have problems, just look at the mountains, or the ocean, or the stars in the sky, and you'll know that life is bigger than that.

Love,
Tiffany

don't regret regretting

Hi Patrick,

You know when you receive those phone calls that change your life? Or maybe just for a minute, your heart stops, and you know it's never going to be the same? I've probably only had a couple of those, but today I got some news that my mom's friend got hit by a car, and died. It's not even like I knew her that well. I mean, we had lunch before, but it's not like I was super close with her, but this news still impacted me in a big way. If this can happen to her, it can happen to anyone, and for so long I've always thought I was immune to these situations, that they would never happen to me. The truth is, they can. It really got me thinking: What if this wasn't my mom's friend, but someone closer? I can't even imagine how I would deal with it. The thing is, I'll never know when these things happen, but I trust that God has a plan for me, even though I might not be able to understand it. My biggest fear is that I'll regret something, that I should have encouraged someone but didn't. I just don't want to regret that I didn't forgive my friend over some dumb argument, or didn't tell my family that I loved them. Even though it's easy to say, "live your life to the fullest," or "live like it's your last day," it's hard to do because we often forget or are too absorbed with ourselves to remember.
I think this experience has jolted me into realizing that there are dreams I have yet to achieve, and people still to love, and I need to treasure the moments I have.

so Patrick, I just hope you can love fully, and live with all your heart. Never let yourself have any regrets.

Love,
Tiffany

dear patrick..so here goes nothing

Dear patrick chan (wow saying your full name sounds so formal),

so I pretty much created this blog for you. I guess it's just me being really inspired by you, or just crazy, but there's just something special about you that makes my heart glow every time you a)talk b)skate c)just being you d)all of the above.
ok ya, d.

I'm guessing you'll never read this but it's ok, everyone needs to hold on to that little hope, that small chance that something out-of-the-ordinary could happen. and me? I believe.

My friends keep making fun of me because I always talk about you. I mean, it surprised me too, because I thought I'd never truly be into someone that I haven't even met. Just somehow, it seems like I know you. Somehow, I feel like your passion for skating can fuel my passion for music and life too.
You must be really nervous before competitions, and I honestly don't know how you do it. For me, before piano festivals or exams, I get really nervous because it feels like you've worked so hard for that moment, and you put everything into it and hope that it comes out right. I get nervous right up until I start playing, then I know that I really love music, and how blessed I am. When I play that last note, sink in that last chord, that feeling of satisfaction is so great. Every time I perform, it makes me stronger for next time, and it makes me more confident to face a new challenge. You know, at first I thought music was something I was doing for myself, and in a way, it was at the beginning. Then I started performing for fundraisers or even just senior homes, and I found music was a way I could help others. That's a really good feeling. I found especially, at senior homes, that they really do appreciate how much you care, and their compliments are often the most heart-warming.

I think using your talents for something greater than yourself is what makes a person so amazing, because many people can be talented, but it means so much more if they use their talent to serve others. I don't think I can change the world, but if I can help one person, that's already enough.

Wow, sorry that was totally not about you, but it's just something I wanted to share with you today.
btw, happy chinese new year=)

love,
tiffany (L)