somewhere only we know

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

one week

A week to go, and it's hitting me. It's hitting me that the people that I've gotten to know and have taken granted of these past years are leaving this place for good. I might never see them again in my whole life. It's hard to believe that you can go to class with someone every day and not realize how much you'll miss them until they have to leave. It's not fair. At the same time, I'm so excited for the adventures that await all of us after high school. Graduating is only a milestone to help us cross into the next stage of life. I can't wait to hear stories from everyone's post-grad experiences. I know things will be different. I used to think that everything would change after high school, but it doesn't have to. I realized that if you're good friends with someone, you don't have to see each other all the time, but when you do, everything just seems to fall back in place as if no time has passed. I know without my friends and family, I would never be here. It's amazing to know that there are so many factors in helping shape and make someone become a successful person. I know that each encouragement note, each smile, hug or acknowledgment has been no less important in building me up. It's with those little encouragements that I have built a foundation upon to face a larger world. I cannot begin to explain how truly blessed I am. God, you always provide. It's unbelievable how good You are to me.

don't judge a book by its cover

It's so ironic. The people that I didn't like before have become some of my closest friends. Thank you God for always surprising me and proving me wrong. I'm sorry that I can be judgmental. Thank you for continually proving me wrong and putting such great people in my life.

nothing has changed

I'm looking at old pictures of us. We were such good friends then. We were so young. I smile because nothing has changed. Over the years, our friendship has grown stronger and on a deeper level. You still tease me like you used to. We still argue just like we used to, or perhaps even more now. Although words are sometimes inadequate to express exactly how much you mean to me, I just want you to know I wish you the very best. I'm going to miss this.

already gone

i love you enough to let you go

& after all...

When you truly care about someone, you'd be happy for them.
I'm really happy for you. I just want you to know that.

sands of time are slipping through my fingers

23 days till grad?!? Impossible, yet true.
I wasn't really looking forward to the grad rafting trip this weekend. Tired and jetlagged from vacation, I wasn't extremely excited about setting up camp in the wilderness. But I didn't realize that this trip would make me miss high school that much more. This trip is probably going to be the last one where we're all going to be together. I'm going to miss all this. Sitting on the raft, despite the intimidating waves, I realized how much I'm going to miss everyone, and how much I'm going to miss these moments.
These are the people I grew up with. The friends that I can truly depend on. I love them. Lying on the picnic tables under the starry sky, it all became clear to me how close we are to the end. I don't want to graduate just yet. Please, let these moments stay a while longer. Please. I play the memories in my head again and again. I think about them as I fall asleep at night. They comfort me.
I never thought I'd miss high school this much. I thought I was stronger than that. I guess I'm not. I was so excited to move on to the next chapter, but as time is closing in on me, I can't deny how much I'm going to miss pa and my friends.
I'm not good with goodbyes.