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It's 10:44 pm and I'm still camped out in the study room. Something about my room just makes studying so difficult sometimes. I guess it's not that late yet, but I feel I've been doing these logic games for way too long already. And of course right now is the best time to start blogging again. I went to DG for the first time again this year, and I realized that I had all these questions. And even though we didn't have answers to all the tough questions, I feel like somehow God answered some of those questions. So far, every year in uni has been so different for me. In first year, I partied often and had a great time. In second year, I kind of isolated myself and focused on my studies. Although I did engage in some extracurricular activities that made for a stellar year in the end, for the majority of the year, I was certain that what I had to do was focus on school and would have no distractions get in the way of that. During those two years, I had moments where the mundane routines got to me. I began to feel a little lost and I had to constantly ask myself what I really wanted in life. I gave myself one too many excuses to put God in the background because I was too absorbed with myself. Thinking back, maybe I had to experience those two years for myself to finally realize my missing puzzle piece. Maybe God knows that I'm a stubborn person, and I won't back down till a point's been proven.He took two of the things that were important to me-having fun and academics-and showed me that none of those things are enough. Only God is enough. I feel like He's saying to me: See? I let you experience those things, but sure enough, you're still left feeling empty. I want more. I want the life that God wants for me. C.S. Lewis once said: "“If I discover within myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." I don't think our questions of 'why are we here?' and 'what am I living for?' come from nowhere. I think that there is a real God that puts these questions in our head to give us those answers.