it's a new day

This summer. Sometimes, it's just living it day by day, taking it step by step, and enjoying every minute of it. It's so great just to be able to wake up early to a sunny day and take a breath outside. It's like nothing else matters but that moment.
Summer is the start of new beginnings and adventures. It's about following your dreams, and being open to new possibilities. Summer is really about following your heart, and I think I'm finally starting to believe it again.

tomorrow-avril lavigne

And I wanna believe you,When you tell me that it'll be ok,yeah I try to believe you,But I don'tWhen you say that it's gonna be,It always turns out to be a different way,I try to believe you,Not today, today, today, today,(backround singer)today...[Chorus:]I don't know how I'll feel,tomorrow, tomorrowI don't know what to say,tomorrow, tomorrow,yeah, it's a different day,tomorrow,It's always been up to you,It's turning around,It's up to me,I'm gonna do what I have to do,just don'tGive me a little time,Leave me alone a little while,Maybe it's not too late,not today, today, today, today, today...[Chorus:]I don't know how I'll feel,tomorrow, tomorrowI don't know what to say,tomorrow, tomorrow,tomorrow its a different dayHey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrowHey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, I'm not ready,Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrowAnd I wanna believe you,When you tell me that it'll be ok,Yeah I try to believe you,Not today, today, today, today, today...Tomorrow... it may change

2 memorable weeks

So it's been 2 weeks of summer already, and so much has already happened: hanging out with my friends, dinner with my cuba besties, seeing an old friend, confusing moments, girl talks, and so much more. When I expected this summer to be filled with unforgettable memories, 2 weeks has brought about a lot of things that I will definitely have in my mind for a while. I thought summer would be a time that would be so easy, and to a certain extent, it has been. I never thought summer would be a time where I'd have to stop and think. These 2 weeks have really gotten me thinking, and I'm not gonna lie, there are some mixed feelings goin' on. At the same time I'm trying to let go, I'm trying to hold on, and sometimes, it feels like we're all falling apart.
So, what IS summer about? Being true to yourself, loving whole-heartedly? I wish I could say I was doing those things, but I'm not sure I am.
Maybe I want you to forget me, so you can be happy again and do whatever you want.
Someone once said, "if you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, then it was meant to be." I'm trying to let go because I'm saving you to have to say things twice, and because you make me question myself and people I thought I trusted.
People change, and sometimes it can be a good thing. I see things in people I've never seen before, and those surprises have been good.
There have been a lot of good things this summer too. It feels good to just walk around downtown, eating out, going for walks, taking things slow, and laughing out loud.

this is not my war

I can't fight this war with you anymore. I'm too tired and I'm losing my mind. I don't wanna be the reason we're all falling apart.

"you're not the exception. you're the rule."- quote from "he's just not that into you"

I didn't expect it, but deep down, I wish you had proven me wrong.
I wished for an exception.
Then you learn there's something called "moving on."

feelin' blue on a summer day

I thought this was what I wanted, but why does it feel so wrong? Why does it have to play out like this? Summer days, make me forget. Here I was thinking and living in a fairytale, but when reality hits, it hits you hard, and there's no room for denial.
Forget it.

summer bloggin', summer fallin', summer lovin'.& thank God it's summer

It's almost been a week since summer started, and boy am I glad it's summer. It's not even just that there's no school. I mean, that's a huge part of it, but it's just, the whole summer atmosphere is mesmerizing. I feel like summer is a time where there are no boundaries, and you can really live it out. So, a friend asked me what my take on love was, what the definition of love was. That's possibly the most complicated question, because love, how can you explain that in words? She was asking in terms of relationships, so I gave it a shot.
I think love is being committed to someone. I don't think it's about the lovey dovey stuff, I mean, when all that goes away, love is when you're still there for that person, to support them. Love is a promise, and it's more than how excited you get when you see them. When you truly love someone, I think it's a promise that you're giving your heart away, and you're not going to take it back.
I definitely don't think it's easy to find, but how can you deny it? Amidst the casual dating and relationships, it warms my heart to see couples that have grown old together. Even after so many years, he still looks at her like she's the most beautiful thing. That's love. When all they need is each other, and they're content with life, that's love.

Love among friends?
A good friend is there for you through thick and thin, and they hear all the things you don't say. They're the kind of people that build you up, and when you're down, keep you up. It's easy to be a friend that always says nice things, but it's those friends that will give you their honest opinion beacuse they love you and want the best for you, those are the friends to treasure for life. Friendship is a journey. Of course there are going to be bumps along the way, but if you can just plow through that, it really does make you stronger. Real friends will hold your hand through the toughest times, and won't run away.

Family

Family. They love you unconditionally, and no matter what you do, they're the ones you can always turn to and know they're going to be there for you. Even though it seems like the closer you are to people, the more you take them for granted, it's important to know that no matter where you in your life, and no matter what you're going through, you can always go back to the them.

So, it's summer and I'm bloggin'. It's summer and I'm lovin'.
It's summer-take it easy, take it slow, and enjoy it.

xoxo_to this summer, and the rest of our lives (L)

SUMMER

I'm soooo glad it's summer. I guess at times it seemed impossible to come out alive, but I guess maybe you underestimate yourself sometimes. This year has been full of stressful moments, freakout/hyperventilation situations, mad studying times, screaming (lots of it), urges to rip textbooks, and a lot of figuring out. Despite all this, I must say this year has also been full of building relationships, making new friends, loving whole-heartedly, learning lessons, and just being me. I learned so much about my friends and myself this year that I didn't even know before. I could seriously write a book about everything that's happened this year: good and bad. I knew this year would be full of memories, guess I was right.
But no matter what happened this year, I'm not gonna forget it, I'm not even gonna try, because it's a part of me. I'll just store it away in a memory bank in my heart, along with all the memories from as long as I can remember.
Now it's summer and I hope it's crazy and insane, because I wanna come out of it and be able to say: ya that summer, I really lived it to the fullest.