I think it's time to bring in the new. I think this new alacrity I have for change is good, although I am, at times, ambivalent about it. Two weeks ago, I would have told you I didn't want to graduate. I didn't want grad to be over because I was scared of losing my friends. But more than that, I was scared of losing that familiarity. The PA halls, seeing the same people year after year. I didn't have to make an effort to fit in a certain group because I had already found mine a long time ago.
But right now, I think I need a new beginning. It's funny how you can know someone for the longest time and not realize that maybe, you weren't meant for them. It's an abstruse concept to comprehend. In these two weeks, I've stepped back a little from all the high school drama and really thought about it. Some questions that have come up are: "Who do I want to be?" and "Who are my real friends?"
There's a time for people to come and pass in life. People that have made a mark on your life and people you just have to pass up. I love you, yet I know that it's time to move forward with my life. My optometrist explained to me that my eye sight will worsen if I read or look at things at a close distance. It'd make my muscles in my eye strain to focus and would thus, worsen my vision. I needed to read from a distance. That's what I feel like I need to do right now. I fear that if we get too close, one day we might fall apart. That's why I'm going to step back a little. Give me some time.
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