2weeks

I guess I can write a longer post today since it IS friday after all.
Two weeks.
Two weeks in and I don't really know what to make of this year. It's already been somewhat of an emotional rollercoaster, or at least half of one. It's funny how little things can really change our minutes, days, or possibly our whole lives. I mean, it's incredible how you can meet someone new, not realizing that they'll turn out to be your best friend, or that you'll remember them for many years to come, even if it was just one conversation that started it all. Sometimes, we just have to revel in the moments that lie within crevices of the big moments because we'll realize that those are the ones that made everything worthwhile.
And of course there are the tough moments when you don't quite know what you're doing with your life, when you're questioning if you're doing it "right." The exciting, dumb, frustrating thing about life is that there never seems to be a black and white, definite answer to anything. We'll never know if we made the right decision. We'll never know if he was the best thing you never had, or if it was really meant to be.
I don't want to leave anything on the table this year. I don't want to say that I didn't "go for it," that I sat back and let things pass me by. I used to think that I always said what I meant, but I don't. There are a lot of things I'm afraid to say. Just because I sport the rugged boots and own a biker jacket doesn't exactly make me a tough girl.
But one thing I know about this year is that I will never stop being grateful. Grateful for friends and family and for being so blessed.
And like I always say, it's the little things. I don't need some big miracle to happen to me every day for me to be happy. It can be a cup of coffee, a good conversation, skyping with an old friend, listening to club beats on a school night, bbming my best friends, playing some Duke Ellington on my keyboard.
We don't always get what we want in life, but that's okay because once you've internalized that fact, you'll learn to appreciate all that life has to offer and learn not to take anything for granted.